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Hey daddy. I haven’t wrote anything to you in a while. But you know I talk about you all the time. And I think about you almost every day. And almost everything reminds me of you.

I’m going back to school, I’m gonna catch up on everything. And I’m gonna go somewhere in life. And I will make you proud. 

I haven’t been feeling myself lately. I feel like my depressions coming back. My anxiety is getting worse. And I just don’t feel good. I wish you were here, you knew how to deal with all of this better than me. You were always there to help me. 
I don’t know whats wrong anymore, I can’t get back into my groove of happiness. I may play everything off so well like I’m happy. I’m really good at that. But you know that.

I don’t know where I’m even going with this. I just miss you, I wish you were here.
Theres no reason for me to feel like this, really. I try my best to be happy for you dad.

I love you,  I’ll see you soon. Okay dad? I miss you, more than anything. I’d give anything just for you to come home. I hope you know that. I wish I would have showed it more when you were here. But you meant the world to me. I wish I could have shown you more that I love you. But I was barely 17 when you left, and I didn’t realize our time would be cut so short. 

Wishes don’t really mean much. 

I’m sorry for everything. I’ll make you proud though.

Goodnight daddy.